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So Much To Say (Friday, November 14, 2008)

It's so hard to love someone whom you know won't love you back no matter how much you assume that he likes you even one bit. I want to move one but I can't. I see him everyday. I can't say 'no' to him. I hate it. I hate him. I hate myself for being so weak. I hate it and wonder why there's no perfect happiness. No perfect day. I wonder why when someone is happy, sadness, sorrow, pain && tears follow. I want to talk to God and let him answer my questions && explain my doubts.

Whenever Dad buys me something and I get excited and all, there's something bad that will really happen. He'd get mad or something. We even debated. I cried. He wanted to prove me guilty. What a meanie.

Lots of things happened in school. Sarah got an abdomenal illness. So no more junk food. No more sour or bitter food. No more soft drinks. Huhu to us.

One more thing. I'm soo forgetful. I even forgot just a five word answer I was thinking before my teacher called me to answer her question. Ghad. I'm abnormal. Lol.

Today was also card day. My English grades decreased. Three points ! Ouch. Some of my subject averages maintained, some decreased. I can't promise. I can't tell if I can really make this study habit work for this third grading period but I'll do my best. Whatever my best is.